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You didn’t love me, but how could you wind me along if you couldn’t even accept my flaws. And here I am suffering because of your cruelty. I “deserve better” but I only wanted you. And I reveal my love for you and you crush me down with such a force, I feel like I honestly never mattered to you. When I’m being so honest with you, your response is so cowardly and selfish, a response I should except to hear from someone that was never my friend at all. But you were my friend before anything, and during the relationship you should have treated me better than a friend. Because I was still your friend and more than that. You’re so cruel, so incredibly cruel. Every memory I have of you, all the places we have been to, you’re entire heritage, all ruined, because of your cold callous self. You did what was best for you? I think you ran away like a coward. I would have given anything for you. My dignity, my sense of self, I’ve lost it all. In confessing my love for you.
I want nothing more than to cut this string that binds us. This loose superficial string. So we never see each other again. So I never hear from you again. It’s the worst thing to hear and see you laugh, you’re going to do so much better after the fact. Only because you know that you don’t love me. That you don’t need me. I’m nothing. I’m nothing to you. I never was, I never would have been.
And now you’ve lost the only person that has ever loved you in years, and I know you, and I know that in due time you’re going to regret it, and when that time comes, my love for you will have completely turned to hate, because you abandoned me. I needed you most and you took that for clinginess. That disgusts me. You mistook my love for clinginess and that I cannot forgive. Because in that, you showed me that your feelings for me were never unconditional.
I would have wished you well hours ago, before you said the things you said, but as awful as this sounds, now I only hope you rot.
"For as long as there been humans we have searched for our place in the cosmos. Where are we? Who are we? We find that we live on an insignificant planet of a hum-drum star lost in a galaxy tucked away in some forgotten corner of a universe in which there are far more galaxies than people. This perspective is a courageous continuation of our penchant for constructing and testing mental models of the skies; the Sun as a red-hot stone, the stars as a celestial flame, the Galaxy as the backbone of night." – CARL SAGAN
(Photography credit: Michael Goh)
Fiona Apple - Oh Well
My peace and quiet was stolen from me
When I was looking with calm affection
You were searching out my imperfections
What wasted unconditional love
On somebody who doesn’t believe in the stuff
Treble clefs by (L to R) Bach, Haydn, Mozart, Beethoven, Schubert, Mendelssohn, Schumann, Brahms, Debussy, and Ravel.
all musicians across all time periods: “fuck how does that thing go”
Beethoven didn’t even try